i can't do it i can't do it i can't do it
it's really hard to get back to myself even though i mostly feel like myself again. i don't want anything. i don't want to do anything. i just want to sit all day long. does this still count as depression? not sure

i don't have the strength to fight
i don't want things to be this way
not caring about anything
i am letting people down
sabotizing my future
is it my future?
help
i can't do this anymore

you reap what you sow
that's what i realize after talking to a few people today
today has been really weird.
i couldn't get out of bed. i had to force myself to get up.
why don't i care about anything today?

nocturnal bliss
insomnia
night owl

i'm still bleuemoon. perky. half octave better. but i'm still the same person.

will this headache ever go away?

i've been feeling kind of sick. i tried not to write. but it's soooo hard! i guess promises made to oneself are difficult to keep.

i love it. no one knows me i can say whatever. but it's weird because no one knows me. i thought that would be a good thing but maybe i want someone to read things!!

this is my new anonymous blog site. no can do. you don't know me. i promise.