blogging

i wonder if i blog more when i don't really talk to people? hmmm. all this week, well, since wednesday three and i have been visiting two. and since i got here, i haven't really had anything to write home about. for instance, last night, we talked until about 2 or 3 am about everything under the sun. it didn't hurt that we had some beer in us along with peanuts and dried squid (typical snacks with alcohol for koreans).

as we were talking i nearly had a melt down when i expressed that i didn't have a choice in whether i continue on with my studies in theology. it's out of my hands. my depression has gotten worse over the years and not better. and it's getting really difficult to write papers. so it might be wise to fold my cards while i still can.

what will i do? maybe i could live on disability and social security checks? i don't think i could hold down a job, not the kind that requires me to be there regularly anyway. i'd have to freelance in some capacity. but what?