moving moving

i got past page 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16. i got stuck on 16. when i get towards the end of a paper, it's like i can't squeeze out another ounce of creative juice out of my brain!

last weekend, i worked around the clock. then this week, i took it easy. i'm wondering if i shouldn't do it the other way - work hard during the week and play during the weekend when everyone else wants to play.

i have been noticing that when i am anchored down and i'm studying, these are moments that i don't mind being alive. i am not bored. i am not wondering about the purpose or meaning of my life. i simply read, write, think, and synthesize, etc. i guess people are made differently. and what makes one person tick may not be what makes another person tick. and for me, that driving force is best experienced when my mind is clear and i am trying to learn new things and then trying to figure out how to unify new and old knowledge. it's cool that i get to live in the way that brings me most sense of fulfillment, satisfaction, happiness, peace.

stuck on 9

i'm stuck on page 9. it happens sometimes. i get stuck on a page for a while. oh well. hope i get up to page 15 by the end of the day! this paper has been really fun to write. i even use an example from lord of the rings. hehe

slow death

my days seem long b/c at every moment i'm trying to write but they seem short at the same time b/c at the end of the day, i have nothing to show for the anxiety that i experienced during the day. my life at the moment is better captured by "slow death" than anything having to do with life.

hard times but good times

last week was a difficult time for our community with some (unexpected) family matters. but we got through it together and we're going to keep on going through the hard times together!

as for my paper, i have written 5 pages (of about 20 pg paper) which is due tomorrow morning at 9:30 am! man oh man. i guess i'm not going to get much sleep tonight. :)

good news anybody?

i need some good news! anybody, anybody?

good enough

i guess good enough and done is better than perfect and unfinished. so my presentation was not a total flop. how did that happen? i was so unprepared. i guess people were incredibly polite.

today is a very very special person's birthday. :) happy birthday!!!

lots of rain

our flight got cancelled! i guess i don't mind so much actually. i get to spend more time with my niece. i have to finish my presentation tonight (since the presentation is tomorrow morning!). will it get done? how will it get done???

btw chicago planetarium is not the most exciting place to visit. my niece had a good time somehow. but the rest of us were like, get me out of here!!! we went to afternoon tea after planetarium over the weekend and my niece loved it! we had also planned to go to a big toy store but it closed down. we had planned to go to a dinner place that is friendly to kids and has live jazz music. but the little ones (including me) were too tired. so we came home. all in all this visit was really great even though i had to get lots and lots of studying done. i was probably more productive here than i am usually back home!